Tuesday, March 27, 2012

My first blog post...

My first official blog post.  I feel so, grown-up...

One of my most favorite things in this world is taking up a pen, cracking open a well-worn notebook to a crisp new page and untangling those crazy things floating around in this head of mind into actual, somewhat, tangible thoughts.  It will be strange to transition to an electronic version of this..I'm not entirely sure yet I can tear myself away from the old fashioned method just yet..A few warnings, my writing style is...unique.  I write as my thoughts tumble out which at times can be somewhat disjointed and random, yet somehow I usually find a way to tie everything up into a nice neat little package at the end.  My advice?  Just jump in and hold on tight!

Things are..a little hard to explain for me right now.  I feel very unfulfilled with my life, this I know.  I also am very sad still in reference to the past few months.  This has truly been one of the most trying times of my life...but I have discovered, more so than I ever knew possible, just how incredibly strong I am and that is a very exhilarating experience.

I have the deepest strongest desire inside me to leave and travel the world, but do you realize how crazy that makes me seem?  However, for me, it is a desire so fierce that I feel as if I don't do it, I could never be truly happy.  So many things to be afraid of though, money and having the means being the number one issue, traveling alone as a girl, and of course, the whole people thinking I'm nuts part (which is definitely last on my list, but still)

There are people everywhere that do what they truly love and sincerely don't give a hoot about what anyone else has to say or thinks.  Happiness is their goal.  An outrageous stat of something around 78% of the workforce is unsatisfied with their jobs..excuse me???  At the ripe, young age of 22 I already find myself bordering dangerously close to this statistic as well.  I quake in fear at the prospect of that for the rest of my life...

I truly believe God has placed a burden on my heart to have experiences ridiculously outside the realm of "normalcy"

I want a story for my life.  A tapestry so intricately woven with beautiful and wondrous experiences that I could speak for years about what I saw and learned.

One day I would like to write a book.

I want to help people.

I heard a quote once and it perfectly describes my thoughts, "I want the beauty of what I love, to be what I do"

I want to act in such a fashion that I think will keep my heart most alive.

One of my favorite quotes of all time...  "When you set out on a journey and night covers the road, that's when you discover the stars."

I want to be discover the stars.

-Carrie